Thursday, July 16, 2009
Complex Mind of the Human always conflicts with the soulful heart of Man...
- to b happy is to c the one u want being happy. but if u r not the reason making her happy? does it make u happy??
i m reli glad to c u having fun. forgetting abt ur brkup... u used to nag at me to not drink so much.. u used to nag abt me injuring myslf blah3... i have alwaes listen to u... n obeyed... even when u wan me to control my temper... i did...
but this time round can it b my turn to talk, n ur turn to do according to wat i wished?
you can nv experience the sour taste of hearing someone whom u call a bro, ask the gal u lik, eh u tired ah? lie on my lap n slp 1st la..reach liao wake u up... u noe hw badly tis sentence hit me? tat til tis day, i can still remember it vividly, even when it was 4 in the morning when this words were mentioned? U noe how bad i felt when i c u get on the bad side of a relationship time n again? blaming myslf for not making u mine.. so tat u wun feel this pain? tings lik such, u will nv noe... nv...
i m already tasting awkward rejections lately... i miss u... i wana say... 3 is forever a crowd... it is smting i cannot n will nv b able to take.. bcoz jus lik i mentioned b4... my priority will nv surpass him... u may claim we are both equally impt to u ... bt ur actions nv tells me tis.. yes.. u do show ur lil acts of kindness.. bt i m selfish... i nid more den jus these lil acts... i need u by me...
to be selfless.. i must 1st learn to be selfish.. n to be selfish, is the only ting i can tink of.. coz i dun wana lose u time n again n again n yet again... y mus i always jus b ge bi de... y mus i alwaes b jus kor... y ..?
"you noe i dun wan to b jus a fren... pu tong peng you..."
Hushed at.. 3:17 AM
Friday, July 10, 2009
M i just too nice, or m i jus too dumb??
haix... perhaps... i reli cun b nasty... perhaps i should start to do things like when i was a PS. demand for things to b done...
perhaps i should reli jus stop being nice altogether...
*being kind to others is being merciless to urslf... hw true...*
Hushed at.. 11:29 AM
Monday, July 06, 2009
did i do wrong again?? i wonder... i reli do... haix... mixed feelings over the weekend.. things were just too quiet.. way too quiet .. quiet till a rather scary extend... haix...
*y does it happens... haix*
Hushed at.. 12:44 AM
Monday, June 22, 2009
shagged... worned out... drained...
when is my break coming???
Bintan? Bangkok?? Redang???
i wanna break free... i guess its about time too...
GO!!!
Hushed at.. 12:07 AM
Saturday, June 13, 2009
and so it seems.. till this point in time.. i m still in 2nd position no matter wat my contributions are like... how unfair to me.. as always it had been...
it jus makes me bitter... day by day... aggravating the hate i have in me against u all...
well done...
Hushed at.. 4:28 PM
Friday, May 29, 2009
Just can;t understand how some ppl can be so selfish at work..
when they not ard, they can throw 1001 things at u to complete. n still got the cheek to make noise when u cun finish the work.. but when u on leave leh?? they dun care if u left them a list.. they just do wat concerns them, n leave the rest for dead..
Fark la.. seriously.. y mus god create such irritable, irresponsible selfish bastards!!!!
CCB i m really bloody pissed.. god bless the next fucker tat steps on me.. *ROAAAARR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!x 897837283410974 !!!!!!!
Hushed at.. 12:32 PM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
god bless ah fei's dad.. may he find peace in his last journey.. :(
Hushed at.. 4:19 PM